Les Mis Trailer

Sunday, 30 May 2010

IF....by Rudyard Kipling.

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!
Having lain awake most of the night thinking about what I wanted to say, battling with my own darker emotions in order to be the better man, this poem suddenly came to mind as I showered this morning. It is one of my very favourites because I truly believe that it sums up man's condition beautifully.
It tells about our frailties and our capacity to chose for good and evil - how man can be a monster when he wants to be, but how it is also possible to rise above all adversities and be the better person.
Why yesterday when a woman came to me in the car park asking if I could change 5 euros for her, and I couldn't, that I gave her my ticket to use instead.
Why people tread over other people's feelings with feet of lead instead of just taking another step to the side and leaving them alone.
Why we chose to protect our loved ones with all our might so that they may be safe.
Why we give our very last ounce if it means someone else can live.
Why we sometimes just have to be patient and wait for the right moment to act because if we don't, the consequences of those actions will be beyond our comprehension and will result in something far removed from the plan one had in mind.
Why we have to be true to our inner voice, to remain the person we know we are under any circumstances, and not give in to wrongful thoughts and actions.
It takes incredible willpower and strength, make no mistake about that!! But without this creed, who are we? What makes us better than any other species? Where does the difference lie between man and beast? Why should man inherit the earth if he is incapable of caring for it?..............
So I am a philosopher at heart. I know I am. I think deep and sometimes impossible thoughts about so many things, and I search for the answers in the dark recesses of my mind. I get lots wrong! But it doesn't stop me questioning who I am and what my purpose on this earth, in this life, is. I think I know......................and although it doesn't make it any easier knowing, it steers my path and makes the road less travelled the one I have to take.
Sue xx

Friday, 28 May 2010

That was the week that was.......

........as the TV series claims!! And what a week we have had here. I am sorry that I can't talk too much about everything that is happening but I feel these are difficult times and what I am experiencing at the moment are things too private to share with a wider public. And since I can only guess at whom some of that public might be, I think 'mums the word', don't you?!!!
Expressions like 'don't jump the gun' do however have strong meaning for me right now as does the age-old saying 'it's not over until the fat lady sings.' So my life is moving forward but it is taking twists and turns I didn't anticipate and problems are arising that ought not to, and all that sort of stuff is going on, so bear with me, and when I can disclose the future ( when I've bought my crystal ball, that is) you'll be the first to know!!!
Hope your days are better than mine!
Sue xx

Monday, 24 May 2010

new style blog

...........just playing around with a new background and header; nice, eh?
Sue xx

Bank holiday weekend

The sun has shined gloriously over the bank holiday here so I have indulged in some garden-time, and by that I mean sitting in it doing nothing!!! Yesterday my friend came over in the afternoon and we went cycling round the dyke - my usual route - and it was so peaceful and warm, we just poottled along slowly meeting many other cyclists or bikers or walkers or kids heading for the lake. Most enjoyable! Of course I had been busy in the mornings, packing our stuff up and washing and all the other chores that are best done early doors before one goes off the idea! We had dinner out in the garden which was great, and this evening I am going somewhere with Tim as an 'end of school' treat. Tomorrow is the reality check of back to work, both of us, and the routines of everyday life...............good whilst it lasted though!!!!
Sue xx

Saturday, 22 May 2010

Blast from the past!!

Amazing what photoshop can do to repair really old, faded photos. These two are of me taken in Holland in 1977 when I spent a great holiday with Clare here. Looks as though I was enjoying myself anyway!! And I suspect this is the last ever photo taken of me wearing a bikini........I remember it well; green with white polka dots all over it! I can see that I am still wearing the silver bangle on my wrist that I wear to this day - had it since I was eleven actually. Ah...'those were the days, my friend, we thought they'd never end, we'd sing and dance for ever and a day'.
Sue xx

Saturday morning

Up at the crack of dawn after rather a sleepless and short night ( or so it felt!) to get Tim off to work on his bike today! Fortunately there was no wind at the time and it was looking like a promising day.....but by 9.56 as I write this, it is windy and cloudy and nowhere near as lovely as yesterday! I am going singing shortly as we rehearse for the biggy on 2 June..............so hope to have some sort of voice today that hits the high notes I am required to sing solo!!!!.....just the odd topB or so...........yikes!! Can't do it repeatedly but on the odd occasion that I am not feeling constricted in my throat through worrying that I can't get the note perfectly pitched it happens.
More importantly I just wanted to say a huge thank you to all my friends who have been fantastically supportive this week and made such a difference to how I have coped. Couldn't do it without you guys, I know that for certain, so lots of love, and a big hug for everyone!
Sue xx

Friday, 21 May 2010

Getting in the mood...........

So that there is no doubt about where our loyalties lie this football competition, and to convince any doubting Thomas's we may know who fail to share our opinion about this, here is the wonderful world of Wayne Rooney!!! It was made for the previous world cup 4 years ago but hey, he is still out there doing his thing for England!!!! So switch on the sound, sit back and enjoy.
Sue xx

Monday, 17 May 2010

Feeling sorry for myself!

Ouch!! I have a throbbing headache because I took a tumble in the garden this afternoon, and hit my head and cut my knee and hurt my wrist and scratched my foot................and now I feel very sorry for myself because I don't usually do this sort of thing and I am not used to it!! I guess by tomorrow I will be right as a bobbin again. Aah..............
Sue xx

Almost time!

Tim's first exam starts just after one o'clock so he is taking his shower now. My nerves are starting to show!!! My tummy goes into knots and I get stomach cramps when I am nervous and that is what I am feeling now! I took his friend to school this morning for his first exam and that was fine; no nerves, but once I got home again they started in ernest! I am sure it will be fine and go well and I have nothing to worry about, so it is all silliness I guess, but it is still our boy and I am still nervous for him! I even had to go out and buy Rolo's!!!!
Sue xx